Life living in Kenya is very crazy. Then adding over 200 kids to live with is even MORE crazy! This is why I NEED some quiet time to relax and take some time to pour out all these emotions that I feel during the week. I spend Wednesdays and Thursdays at a little lodge away from the orphanage to find rest for my body, rest for my mind, and rest for my soul. I was hesitant taking those days off away from work because of all that I have to accomplish during the week, but the more and more I think about my last three months here the more and more I am so glad I took those two days off. I missed my kiddos while away but I seriously needed some alone time.
When I spend my time at the “Buni” my favorite thing to do is sit in the sun on the lawn, plug in my headphones with some praise and worship playing, and have some”quiet time” with God. Working with these amazing kids isn’t really physically tiring (who am I kidding it TOTALLY is!!) but mostly spiritually and emotionally tiring. We share stories, testimonies, have heart to heart conversations, I have had to witness traumatic situations when interviewing and getting photos of new kids to sponsor, and all this really weighs on your heart. Sometimes I don’t know what my heart is feeling because I have a thousand things that I am feeling all at once. But they all boil down to two things; extreme heartbreak for these children and love beyond compare for them as well. My heart feels so close to them I don’t think I can ever be the same. That’s why peace and quiet is a must. So many emotions is so draining.
I cherish my time at the Buni, but at the end of my two day stay I am SO ready to get back to all my little ones! I can’t imagine what it is going to be like to leave in two and a half weeks. All I can say is that I am nowhere NEAR ready to go home. I am going to be a complete and total MESS! I find comfort in the fact that this is NOT my last trip to Kitale, there will be many more after this I am sure;)
Matthew 11:28-29 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Until next time! Love you all!